I was right smack in the middle of a McRib inspired purview of holiday season gone bachelor when mom called me last night.
She wasn’t feeling well, she said. She needed to go into the ER, she told me. My mother is all of four foot and eleven inches worth of Italy’s finest. She doesn’t send out signals for help, unless help is an imminently needed thing. So when she went there, I went blank. It takes a lot to leave me speechless, but she’s my mother and so she still has that way about her when it comes to silencing me.
We arrived in the ER at 9 o’clock last night, after which my world went slow motion. I spoke with a myriad nurses who threw question after antiseptic question at me. Save for the ER doc who knew her stuff and tricked a pow wow with me and the sisters into further tests, because she had a feeling going on.
My mother was experiencing the onset of a stroke when she called me. I think we got to it on time, but the next few days are going to be delicate propositions. Inside these moments, I gotta admit. I’m feeling small to the weight of my everyday existence.
And I’m slightly punch drunk, being as how I’ve been up since six am yesterday. I’m too afraid to sleep but I have to get some. Mom is currently resting and I’m waiting until I feed the cat to hit the pillow for a couple hours.
I came on here because I didn’t want to call my kids, who are having a time of it in New Mexico. They come back Monday, and I’m hoping Monday comes with great news out of the trying hours. I didn’t want to call my friends because they’re still hoisted up inside the holiday season, and besides, they can’t do a damned thing about it, anyway.
Pop is well taken care of. I went over there this morning and cooked him up a couple days worth of grub. Two hours thrown to cooking, and it was bliss.
So you’re it. The bloggers I know from out there. The strangers I call friends. You get my punch drunk call in the middle of the afternoon. And I’m not asking for anything more than a thought, a prayer, a simple wish.
I didn’t know where else to turn right now.